Random thought

Probably wrote about this before but I’m doing it again because i found the journals, but I used to follow a lot of livejournals back in the day. (2001-2006) and when curiosity strikes, I go back and find/try to find those journals. 3 of my favorites always comes to mind and only one didn’t have any changes. The one I enjoyed reading the most because she had some life in herself locked it up tight. It makes me sad because she never seemed to have a bad day, lots of people even from foreign countries seemed to like here/befriend her, lived in California which was a plus for me having dreams of going there one day, talked about how much she loved her job at Sea World, updated her cosplay photos and daily shenanigans, went to the beach…..silly enough reading her entries was everything I wanted to be when I was younger lol. She seemed to have a carefree life or I guess she seemed to have a perfect life. Living on her own way before I started to with the perfect roomate and living in a beautiful area with the beautiful weather and having the chance to go to Disneyland whenever she pleased. I was jealous lol but when I went to look at her journal a few years ago, she locked all the entries. I guess she had been hurting off and on and finally decided to close it. 🙁 I found her twitter but she seems so depressed all the time. I always liked reading her entries because it put me in a good mood. Oh well.



The other girl I remembered was almost the same except she lived on the other side of the country. Another place I’ve always wanted to go: Florida. Lived so close to Disney World every other entry was of her visiting. Le sigh. That’s the life I wanted too when I was in middle/high school, dreaming of hanging around awesome friends, going to the beach and cons, Disney World every other weekend and she was always talking about photoshoots and food lol. She locked hers up too :-‘( but I did find her twitter and happy to know that nothing has changed other than she’s become a grown up 🙂 Nice to see that she’s sharing her food recipes too. Siiigh I’m so lame. Never thought it was creepy to watch their journals since they all made them public anyways. I mean, I don’t think or ever thought I was a creep in the first place. I found one of the girl’s journals and then looked for the other two from there. Too bad they aren’t public anymore. It brought back some memories of my fatass using my own journal and looking at theirs and wishing I was there too living like a badass! Hahaha! One thing though, I did notice that the other girl i used to watch didn’t do all that much to begin with. She’d have fun days then the rest were her playing on the computer. When I went back and read those entries, I was like….your life was just as boring as mine! WTF…….ahhh the times…..



—random blog for the night.

Lots of events since last update

Not that anyone reads this lol but a lot has happened before and after Thanksgiving.

– Went to Grapevine Mills mall to finally check out the Sea Life Aquarium we never got to last year. It wasn’t bad at all. It was actually very nice but for some reason I thought it would be larger for a very large mall. I think my most favorite one will always be the Dallas aquarium and of course the one in Chicago.

-More torturous days at work. It.Never.Ends

-Going to SA for a 4 day weekend for Thanksgiving. Having good food and attempting to go out again for Black Friday. I got a Kitchen Aid mixer for $199! But Walmart is still selling them for that price :-/ I know that originally they’re about $245-279 for the Classic version, but Walmart here only has the white one. I at least wanted some color and I was able to get the red one. Bed Bath and Beyond sells the Classic ones around $300-something so this wasn’t that bad of a deal. Plus, I got some toys for Jay at a knocked off price and the line was only 45 min wait. We almost left too because my husband "didn’t want to wait blah blah this is lame I wanna go home." Ummm what did you think this was gonna be a picnic? That’s why I wanted to go alone.

-Saturday was spent at Six Flags for Holiday in the Park. No rides but we did stay to watch some Looney Tunes show, look at all the lights and then stay for the Christmas tree lighting.

-More torture at work. I swear to god this will never end. I really want to get out of the military because I know I’m not benefiting from anything. People keep telling me "it’s just this base!" but I seriously think it’s bullshit.

-Got the physical therapy bullshit taken care of. I haven’t had treatment in almost 2 months because of this referral that was messed up in the first place. No matter how many calls I made, it never got fixed until I talked to someone higher up. Then the off base clinic had the nerve to call and ask if I wanted to continue treatment with them. No thanks.

-Got paid on Friday and had enough leftover to get the iPod Classic someone wanted. I’m starting to wonder if spending all that money was a good idea because he hasn’t been very nice to me about certain things. I’m trying to ignore it and not be so sensitive about things but it’s really getting hard. Anyway, I bought it through Amazon since I think Sat. was the last day of their Cyber Monday week deals and while it wasn’t down by much, shipping was free. I checked Walmart in person and that same sale was only on online too so pretty sure that would also include Best Buy. And of course, there isn’t any other electronic stores here so I’m kinda screwed. I looked for refurbished ones through Apple and they were all sold out 🙁 So of course, spending a chunky $230+ meant having to hold back on paying for some of the furniture we’re getting and my husband says " It’s not like you’ve paid for any of it." See, this is what makes me want to take the iPod back, but I’m trying to subtly hint WHY I’m not putting any money down this time. God damn.

-Finally, we went looking for more Christmas decorations. We bought a wreath, a gingerbread house and a decorating cookie for J, some decorations for the patio and for the little houses we bought last year, candy canes for the tree and candles. Jay got to pick what kind of ornament he wanted this year and I went ahead and picked one out for myself. I got Princess Tiana because we share the same name and she’s black LOL



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This kid would NOT nap yesterday. And the result of giving up made him a crackhead the rest of the night. Screaming and throwing things and when it was bed time, he flipped his shit. I don’t know if something scared him??? Or maybe he can’t breathe or something at night? But after continous fighting and putting the gate up that he ran through and burst down, then started hypervenilating or……something…..like he had been scared by a ghost, I let him sleep in our room, where he proceeded to kick me and try to push me off the bed. I keep loosing sleep over this and I don’t know if he’ll grow out of it sooner or later. It worries me.



On the 15th we’re supposed to be going to the Six Flags in Dallas but that was up in the air a few weeks ago. I haven’t been to that one in almost 3 years. Last time I went was when I was pregnant and I couldn’t ride anything 🙁 But I gotta go now and get this kid ready so we can both decorate this tree 😀 and maybe go to the park afterwards? I really need to wash my hair.