Oldschool Nerd Ramblings

I spent the last couple days transferring old journal entries from all the way back to 2002, from high school and my first anime convention until 2013 when I was last living in Texas. A very cringey trip down memory lane. I will really miss Open Diary being around. I am glad I spent the entire day off and part of Tuesday to copy and paste. I have all my entries locked since it's too embarrassing to leave public but I don't want to get rid of them just yet, especially since there's a lot of stuff I had forgotten so I like seeing when it happened.

So...............

I've been going down different rabbit holes of tiktok drama. Why? Because I've been bored. I used to think that LiveJournal drama was the thing even though its old haha but no. I have watched pieces of grown women (with children because go figure) arguing with each other online. From being bad mothers and showcasing it through their lives to calling CPS on each other. Seriously. Going to report to CPS because you don't like someone online. How tf does that even work??? That means going out of the way to search online their names, where they live and usually that happens because they slip up or people happen to be in the same online communities as them so they'll give their info to the people searching. This is so embarrassing. One woman goes on live EVERY DAY just to ramble and whine that she has haters and constantly posts that "the hattters" won't bring her down and blah blah blah. Crazy that somebody has that much time all day everyday. Then threatening one another with calling the police, restraining orders, threatening to pull up...I am so embarrassed to even watch some of these.

I was really rooting for the resilient jenkins family to overcome poverty and make themselves a better life but that isn't happening. I'm disappointed. But now it's very obvious that she doesn't want to better her life. She doesn't want help and the attitude is if I'm going to suffer so is everyone around me. I already know those kids are going to cut contact with her once they're old enough to. Not surprised that the two oldest haven't tried running away yet. It makes me reflect that my parents were not perfect but really really grateful that I was able to grow up the way I did, no traumatizing bullshit like living in a motel because your parents are too pathetic and LAZY to give a shit enough to get you out of this mess.

Now I'm going down a deep dive of a family exploiting their middle child to make mukbangs because how else are they going to get money fast without actually working. Really sad for the state of things online and what some younger ones probably think this is "normal".

It's kind of funny to think that the first snow day of the semester also means the base is closed so we also get a snow day hahaha. I feel like a kid again getting a free day off due to a blizzard. I am definitely not complaining. So I basically have done nothing but play games today. I'll get to the sewing table construction tomorrow.

Saturday I had sushi with Allison and it was delicious. The martini I had was GROSS and it's cause I had more alcohol than flavor. Also, horrible stomach ache afterwards. It's probably because my stomach isn't used to it as in it's been a while since I've had real sushi and since I've started my medication so my appetite has shrunk immensely. Fish doesn't make me full fast but I think having it for the first time in well over a year probably caused it. Food was 10 outta 10 will go back another weekend. Just no martini and will stick to water.

We all went to Golden Corral for dinner and istg I don't want to go back. I know it's completely hit or miss being a buffet but people are so nasty. Watching a woman hold the cake tray with her hand to let some guy cut easier then proceed to lick her fingers, then touch the tray again. Then RIGHT AFTER, use that same hand to cut carrot cake. Gddmnt and I know that happens anywhere, but I really didn't need to see it. Plus, every Gold Corral I've visited is filthy. The tables are never clean and the buffet area alone is always gross. Wasn't my choice for dinner and I really really.....don't want to go back anymore, not even after some time passes. It's been gross and has not changed since I first went back in 2009.

my braids are really itchy this time around. My head hurts not cause of the braids but because I haven't been able to sleep normally since I lost my pillow. I need a new one but no idea where to look for one that doesn't cost in the hundreds. I'm going to have another night of barely being able to sleep.

Updating from the library. If this were 2002 again, absolutely. As those were my blogging years. Now I'm here because I didn't want to stay at home blogging so I left the house to blog at the library. It's somewhat quiet (lol who am I kidding.) Already there was someone yelling "oh shit it's checked out, guess I can't do anything now" and someone telling their kid shhhhhhhh very loudly. Also with people having conversations loudly as they walk by.

I'd like to update my website but that involves me having to buy a lightbox cause I have no realistic room to shoot anything. I'm afraid to purchase that right now. I'm even worried buying a book will set me back and really the whole reason I went to the library in the first place was to see if The Long Walk was here (it's not) and the only way to get it for now is online.

I hear a very loud fan in the corner of the room and it sounds oddly satisfying and nostalgic. Just like those large, faintly yellowed early 90s fans with huge square buttons I would have sitting on my floor during hot summers. Even though it's November now, the weather varies from really cold to unusually warm outside. I'd say the temperature in the library is fine but whatever...someone is using it.

I went on a walk this morning and took a photo of park of the trail I was on. Absolutely nothing about it stood out but for some reason the angle I was at made me think of when I used to walk to and from elementary school. All this reminiscing is really making me sad.

Today we went to Smith farm since we usually visit around October every year since they would have cool stuff. The last few years we've gone, they've had a candy cannon they'd shoot I'd say every 30 minutes or so. There were petting zoos and horse rides, hayrides, plenty of places and space for the kids to jump around, lots of food and drink vendors, the farm itself that sells produce, free drinks and live music. It's always been enjoyable. And this year none of that was happening. They closed off the main part of the farm and limited it to only bouncy castles that you had to pay for. That's it. They still gave out free drinks but no live music, no hayrides, no petting zoo, nothing. I felt like the moment we walked in and found that out we ended up leaving right after. Also didn't help that the wind was blowing like crazy.
We haven't had much luck with farms this month as the other farm we went to in the past was completely DEAD. There were barely any people there and a whole lot of empty space. Went on the hayride and went in a giant circle with nothing to look at. One food vendor that had nasty donuts. Really needed to make it clear not to bother going back after this time. What a waste of money. Went to the trunk or treat at the HS and that wasn't too bad but the kids were already bored so we left after walking around a little bit.

Alright, we'll be trying our luck next weekend going to Denver and seeing what Halloween events they got going on. Probably a lot more eventful than what's here.

I went to an antique shop on Saturday. I hardly go that faaaaar side of town but it was nice getting out of the house. I went for Allison's birthday and Teresa met us there. There a ton of stuff but not sure why someone would want to sell their old family photos. I'm assuming most of the items are from people cleaning out the homes of relatives that have passed on. Even though they are vintage, it doesn't sit right with me buying grandma's wedding photos from 1902. There was a lot of cool looking old furniture, sewing patterns and trinkets I wish I had a use for.



Near the front of the store




A music box that was clearly broken. The wind underneath was crooked and couldn't be moved. Smh.




My favorite figure of the Pilsbury Doughboy stuffing his fatass with brownies of the month.


a goodie for the month of September


And a frightening looking smile. Her name might be Susan lmao

There was one vase that was very pretty. It was light pink and had flowers on it. Probably made out of glass too. I would of liked to have it but knowing my house, it would be broken. We can't have nice things here. The shopping trip started off nice but after the first hour my head started to hurt really bad which ruins everything and my back and legs started to stiff up really bad. After a couple hours, we all parted ways and I headed home to lie down to nurse my stupid headache.



For Sunday, we just went to the park for a little while then I had to give in and put air in my tires. I'm glad I had to force myself to do this because I had no clue how to check the PSI on my tire. And doing this I found out the air cap was missing in my front tire. I'm sure by the end of the month I'll need to replace all my tires because they look like the tracking is gone. It really is exhausting being an adult. I talked to Tai for a couple of hours and heard him vent. Needless to say hearing him rejoice that the bigot died on Friday had me cracking up. Normally I wouldn't joke or laugh about it but after getting on the late train on what had been happening in the last few years....yeah no sympathy from me either. I wish him and his family well, in hell hahahaha

So on more than one occasion, I have tried to get Labubu's at retail price. And I have succeeded. HOWEVER, with blind boxes and using the "shake hints" I have repeatedly got duplicates. I wish I had better luck because what the hell LOL. I got 3 of the soymilk ones and three of the Love from Big in Energy. I did get the green one from Popmart and I bought the blue one from a reseller unfortunately. I wanted purple but I guess it isn't meant to be haha. I thought about giving them to my daughters but they don't even take care of their Barbies. Those monster plushies are gonna be ripped apart, so I'll most likely sell them back for retail whenever they get in. This is my fucking luck. I deleted the app lmaooo I'll just be surprised whenever they show up.

Aliexpress has some stores that sell legit ones and not the Lafufus, so I might look for the pink one of the Have a Seat there but that'll be it, fuck a blind box lmao.

Started sewing again. I cut the pieces out for Luna and I'm gonna wear it. Only because I paid all this money especially the wig, I might as well. Even if it's just for photos. I started Elizabeth's mock up. I need to draft a pattern for the collar and find a free pattern for the hat. Also need to draft a pattern for the boots but I plan on buying all of the fabric on payday. I just might go ahead and work on Pokemon trainer because I have nothing else planned. Wait scratch that, I just remembered a pattern I have for Aerith still exists downstairs and I may be able to get that one done. I don't think it'll be a problem? but I am prioritizing Luna and Persona first. Finally got the cats nails trimmed. We saw Elio today and not gonna lie, I almost teared up at one point. It's nice seeing an original Disney film.

Saw how hideous Labubu's are....then ended up buying two just a couple months later lmaoooo. I have made an exception for those two and perhaps the purple one that's hard to get. Oh and I also got some of the Stitch Eat Something Before Sleep. The first store that wasn't official that claimed they sold originals, well, most of the reviews after I purchased them said they were fakes. Fast forward to two weeks later, I'm guessing I lucked out because they had the official holographic sticker and the box matched the official ones. The quality was really good too. I went back and looked at some more reviews and it looks like the seller is shady and would mix in fakes with authentic ones. It drives me nuts that bootlegs even exist. So, Shein has the official Miniso store on their platform, so I bought from them. They are 100% legitimate once they got in but I ended up getting a duplicate and one other I didn't want so I might sell it. I wish these weren't so hard to get in the brick and mortar store. One more store I found on Aliexpress happens to sell legitimate ones they get directly from the store and they have overwhelming positive reviews compared to the other store. I'm going to try one last time but just get the one I want directly, which is the secret one lol. It's cute and I figure that trying for more blind boxes will not be in my favor.

Going to Des Moines in just one more week. Looking forward to it and finding some things to do for vacation fun. But before vacation, I have one last week to be at work. I volunteered for I Day and training starts Monday afternoon. I almost felt like backing out but then remembered that I'm getting out of work for free on Wednesday hahaha. It's a long ass time but I'm probably going to go home after we're done and it beats sitting in the office during summer while half of the building is empty.

I had a crazy dream last night! So, I had a dream that I entered into a cosplay contest. I made Ariel's gown from the limited edition doll that was released in 2019. No specific one but it was at a convention and once I got into the backroom where you wait to get judged, I noticed that my gown still had pins stuck near the hem because it wasn't finished. Then I noticed the bodice was fraying as that wasn't finished...then the sleeves being uneven....and noticing more and more issues. I started to panic and told my friend helping me when could I find the judges so I could drop out, I was too embarrassed to go on stage with something like this lololol I kept getting told I looked fine but I refused looking like that. Anyway, I woke up in a panic...which probably explains why I started cutting patterns today haha.

Didn't do anything productive like I planned. Not an entire waste since we all went to see the live action Lilo and Stitch. It wasn't bad but I didn't like it compared to the original.

I'm trying to chill on replacing/finding what I don't have collection wise until I get paid next week. Only because I should be getting my bonus and I'd rather use that than the normal amount I have. Plus, I still have a shit ton of bills left to pay.

And even though it rained, today was still pretty good. I'm kinda pissed I have to go in tomorrow!