Oldschool Nerd Ramblings

Another FF7 ufo catcher of Cid Highwind what in the hell??!!

Incredible.

I am once again overdrafted 🤡

More news coming out that involve stupidity. So I need to focus on getting Human Luna ready for final sewing and keep drafting Sakura’s movie outfit. I found a kitten that I really wanted that was adopted. Then another, then another. I hate that there’s only only adoption place within 20 miles and everything else is in Denver which makes it harder to adopt because I can’t be there immediately. I’d need to plan a day to drive out there. Then everyone has to go because it’s required. So anyway, I know Petco/Petsmart has adoption days and some of the kittens are from the shelter or other places so I’m going to look out for that. The clerk from yesterday told me the next one is in mid Feb. I’d like to get another orange cat or one with pretty colors.

I have a lot to pay off and it’s only the 28th. I found Cid…… of all the times for this discovery I am broke broke. Like I can’t even partial pay or borrow money. God damnit. So there’s two things, I either get my bank deposit by tomorrow afternoon or Thursday. But I highly doubt he’ll even be there tomorrow or Thursday so I’m keeping my expectations super fucking low because it’d be my luck for it to be sold out.

I don’t want to work out today at all. I don’t want this man at home pressuring me for sex. I don’t want to sleep with someone who hyper fixates on tHe GaYs! whining like it’s the worst thing in the world instead of siding with someone who is racist, a rape apologist, sexually harasses women and trying to block anything that is safe and helpful to black and poc yet instead only helps white people.

I was just thinking about how they’re trying fear mongering into us. It’s been working and I know I shouldn’t let it put fear into me. One of the reasons why I know I shouldn’t skip the gym because it’s helping me stay productive and keeping my mind off of what’s causing me anxiety. I am so tired. This month isn’t even over yet.

I am failing my science class. I am fully aware this doesn't affect anything but my GPA...basically I can retake the class and not have to pay any money back, but I'm frustrated because I only picked this class because it was available on campus right after work and a lab was involved. The teacher is nice but I cannot keep up with her teaching methods on top of this class is mainly for people who plan on taking Chemistry or pursuing a degree in Science. Not what I'm doing, all I'm getting is a communications degree. So, I wrap around being frustrated again. I don't want to sit in class for 2 hours for a lecture she's zooming through and I don't want to sit another 2 hours in a lab that I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing. I thought I could salvage my grade but I've missed enough time that it won't make a difference trying to make it up. Plus, the exams are the largest part of your grade and I've failed all of them so far. So now, I have to wait until Fall to retake a different science class. Really frustrated overall. I didn't even go to lab tonight. I went to get french fries (of all fucking things, of course) got gas, then got some tea. Now i'm sitting in my driveway because I don't want to walk in the house just yet just to be asked "Why aRe yOu HomE so EarLY??" so I'll sit out here.

I never got my II collection of Gundam Seed. The seller never shipped my item?? No clue why it took so long, there's no excuse for it not to be sent out by the 3rd day. Mercari refunded me only because the seller never responded. I should've known it was a red flag because the listing had a blurry photo. Almost like the guy threw the dvd set and took a quick photo of it flying. I could barely make it out but still bought it anyway. Lesson learned. In the meantime waiting for this asshole to ship, another collection edition went on ebay and gone in a couple days that cost way less. ughh

I did manage to get a copy of Ace Attorney Investigations without paying half a leg for it. It sucks the DS store shut down because now most people are trying to sell certain DS games at astronomical prices. Wtf....Hopefully the copy I bought wasn't from a scammer. Otherwise, the "cheapest" copies run around $60-70 which is ridiculous. My Edgeworth Sanei plush came in! And usps said the FF7 collection with Tifa and Barret made it but I don't have my mail key. I know I could just go inside and grab it but I'm still gonna wait it out. I am pathetic lmaoo

Mad about the weekend flying by. I swear!!! I remember putting my shoes away and going to lie in my bed for a few minutes and next thing I know, I'm looking up at the clock while writing my paper on Sunday pissed off I wasted the weekend. We didn't go anywhere, just stayed inside. Wasted a perfectly good day because the weather has been looking much nicer and I want to go to a nice park, Denver, something!! Also just plain pissy about people driving in trucks who are absolute psychopaths. It seems every asshole drives a truck and deliberately tailgates, speeds like hell, or whips in and out of the lanes, with a complimenting flag or two of that old assshole trump they all worship. It looks stupid, it looks like a cult and tacky as hell having two giant ugly flags hanging off of the back of the truck. GDI

I think I've hit my time where I can go in the house now lmao. I still don't want to. I don't even want to go to work tomorrow. I just wanna sleeeeep! For some positivity for myself, since acquiring Edgeworth sanei, I'm on the lookout for Phoenix as he is the last one to complete my collection and I am right back at square one being frustrated finding him lol. I mean, when I was searching for Maya, it took a year until I had somebody willing to sell her to me but this was using a website that had people in Japan find items for you, like a personal proxy. I miss living in Japan because it was easier for me to look for stuff online and in person. I'll eventually get him, but now i'm going inside to go to bed lol