Soooo excited for the upcoming months!
Jun. 28th, 2013 01:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
graffiti_marinaOk, so I found out that I’ll be making a trip to New York in August! My family will be there just in time for my son’s birthday but that’s not originally what the trip is for. Our cruise to Cozumel got canceled so we all wanted to do something else, and this is what everyone wanted to go! I’ve never thought about going before but my husband did bring it up about wanting to go since last year. We had a plan, then ALS came up so it ended up not happening. But now we’re going anyway! Yay! How cool. I’ve always wanted to ride the subway haha even though that sounds so lame.
Then right after that will be my Hawaii trip! But honestly, ever since I found out I’m going to Korea, I’ve been more excited about that than going to Hawaii even though I’m sure my mind will change once it’s time to hop on that plane. Now I really hope I’ll get a follow on to Japan I’ll be super happy. I’m excited and everything and I’m sure I’ll be going but I still can’t help that little part in my mind that this Korea thing will fall through and I won’t go. It’s almost like the part in me feels like I’m destined to be stuck here lol. But…no need to be negative. Even if that does happen, I’ll be going to New York and Hawaii so that will make up for it if it doesn’t happen lol. But I’m pretty sure that I’ll be going.
Tomorrow we should be going to Prime Time since it’s a discount day. Maybe I’ll try and win that Wii U again since one of the associates said Sunday people usually win things lol. School is on a roll. It sucks as usual. To top it off, my other two classes start Monday! Ughhh that happened so quick! And this class I’m in now is not easy. I’m struggling to write a message board post! I tried getting it done last night and I just couldn’t focus. I got a little start on my freakin 10-15 page paper ughhhhhhhh. I think once I finish my Bachelors I AM DONE. I never want to go to school again after this. It’s funny, the most progress I’ve had was going to this school and not any of the schools that were nearby me. Or….it could just be that my mindset has changed and I realized that it was finally time to get my crap together so I could just be done already. I just remember working at all these crappy retail jobs and all my friends were doing internships at places they wanted to work at. I don’t know…I was really unhappy. Then the military happened haha.
Oh well, I can’t complain. Honestly I have no idea where I would be if I didn’t join. I mean, I’m sure I would’ve been out of my mom’s house by now but I think it would’ve been another couple years because as much as I wanted to move out I didn’t have the motivation. I’d plan what kind of apartment I’d live in, how much stuff I would need and how much money I’d have to spend and my bills compared to what I was paying now. The only problem was the job(s) I was working at wasn’t paying enough as long as I was going to school. And my motivation to get a better paying job was low because I was scared of working somewhere where the expectation was higher. And I have NO idea why I felt that way. Maybe because I was still afraid of rejection. And the other part of it seems partly out of laziness too. Almost like I didn’t want it, I just wanted to complain. Actually…no laziness wasn’t that bad. I mean it was a part of it but the biggest part was just poor planning. I didn’t really know how to save well. I mean, at one point I wanted to pick up and move somewhere. I remember Colorado because one of my mom’s cousin’s lives there and I liked the environment cause there was more stuff to do and I was away from my mom and California was like a runaway’s dream. I knew there’d be no way I could get there without a plan, although I had contemplated moving down there to live with my friend until I could find a job and move out HAHAHA. No way would that had happened. Hannah’s sisters are psychotic and she ended up moving to Texas anyways so that wouldn’t have worked out well. Well, some things end up happening for good reason. That’s all I can say about that. I just gotta say that I’m not glad I’m living with MY MOTHER BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE GONE INSANE!
Joelle told me like a week or so ago that Avery died. I’m shocked but should I really be? We weren’t friends but we were mutual because we had the same friends and all hung out with each other. She’s always been on drugs and alcohol so this really shouldn’t come as a surprise. For the brief time we were friends on Facebook, she would try boasting about she’s been sober for 7 months (from drugs) but still get shitfaced on alcohol. She looked pretty gross after all these years. I can now see why she never had a place of her own and just couch surfing throughout the country. Guys would pay for her because they were obviously sheep, like when she went to Texas for no reason then Disneyland around the holidays all at once. Yeah….can’t even imagine paying the money to fly from Iowa to Texas to California then pay for a day ticket to Disneyland. I’m even more surprised that her "friends" were foolish enough to spend money on her but I never took into account that she most likely was selling drugs as well as her "buddies" so never mind. I know I sound spiteful, but I think it’s ridiculous that it went on long enough to take her life. Some people just can’t be helped because they don’t want it. I’m glad I never got into that shit. How can you live your life and not have any purpose or goals for yourself? I don’t understand how people get wrapped up in an addiction. I may never know either and I don’t want to know. I am sad for her mother and sister. I know Avery and her mom didn’t get along for a while but I guess over the past couple years they were trying to be close. Nobody wants to outlive their child.
Alllright, I seriously got off track. I need to be finishing up this message board post but also I haven’t showered at all since I’ve come home!! Not on purpose, I was eating breakfast and watching J, then my husband left for the gym. I have a hair appt at 12:30 and I should use this time to shower instead of blogging lol.
This message board class assignment still sucks!
Then right after that will be my Hawaii trip! But honestly, ever since I found out I’m going to Korea, I’ve been more excited about that than going to Hawaii even though I’m sure my mind will change once it’s time to hop on that plane. Now I really hope I’ll get a follow on to Japan I’ll be super happy. I’m excited and everything and I’m sure I’ll be going but I still can’t help that little part in my mind that this Korea thing will fall through and I won’t go. It’s almost like the part in me feels like I’m destined to be stuck here lol. But…no need to be negative. Even if that does happen, I’ll be going to New York and Hawaii so that will make up for it if it doesn’t happen lol. But I’m pretty sure that I’ll be going.
Tomorrow we should be going to Prime Time since it’s a discount day. Maybe I’ll try and win that Wii U again since one of the associates said Sunday people usually win things lol. School is on a roll. It sucks as usual. To top it off, my other two classes start Monday! Ughhh that happened so quick! And this class I’m in now is not easy. I’m struggling to write a message board post! I tried getting it done last night and I just couldn’t focus. I got a little start on my freakin 10-15 page paper ughhhhhhhh. I think once I finish my Bachelors I AM DONE. I never want to go to school again after this. It’s funny, the most progress I’ve had was going to this school and not any of the schools that were nearby me. Or….it could just be that my mindset has changed and I realized that it was finally time to get my crap together so I could just be done already. I just remember working at all these crappy retail jobs and all my friends were doing internships at places they wanted to work at. I don’t know…I was really unhappy. Then the military happened haha.
Oh well, I can’t complain. Honestly I have no idea where I would be if I didn’t join. I mean, I’m sure I would’ve been out of my mom’s house by now but I think it would’ve been another couple years because as much as I wanted to move out I didn’t have the motivation. I’d plan what kind of apartment I’d live in, how much stuff I would need and how much money I’d have to spend and my bills compared to what I was paying now. The only problem was the job(s) I was working at wasn’t paying enough as long as I was going to school. And my motivation to get a better paying job was low because I was scared of working somewhere where the expectation was higher. And I have NO idea why I felt that way. Maybe because I was still afraid of rejection. And the other part of it seems partly out of laziness too. Almost like I didn’t want it, I just wanted to complain. Actually…no laziness wasn’t that bad. I mean it was a part of it but the biggest part was just poor planning. I didn’t really know how to save well. I mean, at one point I wanted to pick up and move somewhere. I remember Colorado because one of my mom’s cousin’s lives there and I liked the environment cause there was more stuff to do and I was away from my mom and California was like a runaway’s dream. I knew there’d be no way I could get there without a plan, although I had contemplated moving down there to live with my friend until I could find a job and move out HAHAHA. No way would that had happened. Hannah’s sisters are psychotic and she ended up moving to Texas anyways so that wouldn’t have worked out well. Well, some things end up happening for good reason. That’s all I can say about that. I just gotta say that I’m not glad I’m living with MY MOTHER BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE GONE INSANE!
Joelle told me like a week or so ago that Avery died. I’m shocked but should I really be? We weren’t friends but we were mutual because we had the same friends and all hung out with each other. She’s always been on drugs and alcohol so this really shouldn’t come as a surprise. For the brief time we were friends on Facebook, she would try boasting about she’s been sober for 7 months (from drugs) but still get shitfaced on alcohol. She looked pretty gross after all these years. I can now see why she never had a place of her own and just couch surfing throughout the country. Guys would pay for her because they were obviously sheep, like when she went to Texas for no reason then Disneyland around the holidays all at once. Yeah….can’t even imagine paying the money to fly from Iowa to Texas to California then pay for a day ticket to Disneyland. I’m even more surprised that her "friends" were foolish enough to spend money on her but I never took into account that she most likely was selling drugs as well as her "buddies" so never mind. I know I sound spiteful, but I think it’s ridiculous that it went on long enough to take her life. Some people just can’t be helped because they don’t want it. I’m glad I never got into that shit. How can you live your life and not have any purpose or goals for yourself? I don’t understand how people get wrapped up in an addiction. I may never know either and I don’t want to know. I am sad for her mother and sister. I know Avery and her mom didn’t get along for a while but I guess over the past couple years they were trying to be close. Nobody wants to outlive their child.
Alllright, I seriously got off track. I need to be finishing up this message board post but also I haven’t showered at all since I’ve come home!! Not on purpose, I was eating breakfast and watching J, then my husband left for the gym. I have a hair appt at 12:30 and I should use this time to shower instead of blogging lol.
This message board class assignment still sucks!
