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graffiti_marinaSo after all this ridiculous frustration, it turns out that I was finally able to complete what needed to be done for my financial aid. I was able to submit it today and I guess I should hear something back in a few days. Of course, today probably doesn’t count as it’s the weekend so I’ll say anywhere from the middle of next week to the week after. I’m pissed because what stopped me is their stupid terms for things. All they had to do was tell me they needed a copy of my tax return (which they shouldn’t need in the first place because they have my FAFSA wtf????) Ugh…It’s over with so it doesn’t matter.
Today was a pretty good day. I normally don’t do this, but I skipped spin class so I could sleep in. We all got up and around 11 we went to go see the Croods. It wasn’t that bad but I’m a stickler what movies is produced by whom lol. It’s no Pixar but it wasn’t bad. After that we let my son play in the play area in the mall then had lunch at home. After spending a few hours at home, we went out to eat dinner and picked up a few Easter things from Target. Idfk why but I left my keys in my car and locked myself out. Luckily I had some battery left in my phone and was able to call someone. Watched Pit Boss and have no idea how they’re still in business with what little money they have and virtually no help and K&K take Miami and wishing I had their posh lifestyles without a care in the world. If only…
Ok so…. I know I like to give some people the benefit of a doubt, but got damn. So Sarah really isn’t willing to change. She’s always going to be a stuck a weeaboo living with her parents sitting on her fat ass wishing for love and moving far away and being able to visit Japan yet not doing anything to achieve it. I tried to subtly hint that I was once in the same spot but at the same time I wasn’t willingly or even trying to move out of my mom’s because I was scared too and had no idea what I was going to do with myself. But I wanted out so bad. I hated living with my mom; she got on my fucking nerves, I was sick of living in the city I was in and I felt as if I couldn’t do any better than retail because I was too dumb. Then it finally dawned on me that if I got a degree in something I really wanted I’d actually be working doing something that made me happy. And when that didn’t work out because of not having money for school, I took a risk in doing something else. Now, I live on my own (and look at that, I’m married now too *bonus*) I make my own money and am even more grateful that I make enough to not only support myself and my family but can put enough aside to do things I want or for something that I want to have. I bought plane tickets and reserved a hotel for Hawaii….I probably never would have been able to have done that if I was still right where I was almost 4 years ago. And by the time I go, I’ll have enough saved up to do whatever I want once I get there and even have money for souvenirs. And even if I wanted to, I have enough discipline to save up enough money to take a vacation to Japan. As much as I want to, the only thing that is stopping me from going is my husband because he is 100% positive that we’ll end up getting stationed there. Maybe but it’s not like it’ll be anytime soon. I want to go soon not wait another 10/20 years. And it’s not like we can’t afford it. But off of that, Sarah just doesn’t realize if you really want something, you have to work for it and you have to WANT it, not pine after it. I did that for so many years and it got me nowhere. I’m glad I took the risk that I did because I don’t know where I would be now if I hadn’t. Honestly, people make fun of her for being mentally retarded or having Autism or something. I’m not sure but I think she has something….the way she acts then if anybody tries talking to her normally she flips the fuck out. And apparently, she’s been cutting herself…and by cutting, she’s using her fingernails to scratch her arms *rolls eyes* She cries about she’s stuck at home and she doesn’t want to be living with her parents for the rest of her life. Well, GET OUT AND DO SOMETHING. All her Twitter posts talk about buying hundreds of dollars’ worth of this stupid Japanese fashion that just looks like something you should be wearing at a convention and not public yet she doesn’t have enough money to pay bills, save up to move out of her “miserable” parent’s house or save to go to Japan. You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. Guess I’ll just continue to sit back and watch this train wreck. It’s sad but at the same time watching her timeline makes me feel better about myself and my accomplishments. Peace.
Today was a pretty good day. I normally don’t do this, but I skipped spin class so I could sleep in. We all got up and around 11 we went to go see the Croods. It wasn’t that bad but I’m a stickler what movies is produced by whom lol. It’s no Pixar but it wasn’t bad. After that we let my son play in the play area in the mall then had lunch at home. After spending a few hours at home, we went out to eat dinner and picked up a few Easter things from Target. Idfk why but I left my keys in my car and locked myself out. Luckily I had some battery left in my phone and was able to call someone. Watched Pit Boss and have no idea how they’re still in business with what little money they have and virtually no help and K&K take Miami and wishing I had their posh lifestyles without a care in the world. If only…
Ok so…. I know I like to give some people the benefit of a doubt, but got damn. So Sarah really isn’t willing to change. She’s always going to be a stuck a weeaboo living with her parents sitting on her fat ass wishing for love and moving far away and being able to visit Japan yet not doing anything to achieve it. I tried to subtly hint that I was once in the same spot but at the same time I wasn’t willingly or even trying to move out of my mom’s because I was scared too and had no idea what I was going to do with myself. But I wanted out so bad. I hated living with my mom; she got on my fucking nerves, I was sick of living in the city I was in and I felt as if I couldn’t do any better than retail because I was too dumb. Then it finally dawned on me that if I got a degree in something I really wanted I’d actually be working doing something that made me happy. And when that didn’t work out because of not having money for school, I took a risk in doing something else. Now, I live on my own (and look at that, I’m married now too *bonus*) I make my own money and am even more grateful that I make enough to not only support myself and my family but can put enough aside to do things I want or for something that I want to have. I bought plane tickets and reserved a hotel for Hawaii….I probably never would have been able to have done that if I was still right where I was almost 4 years ago. And by the time I go, I’ll have enough saved up to do whatever I want once I get there and even have money for souvenirs. And even if I wanted to, I have enough discipline to save up enough money to take a vacation to Japan. As much as I want to, the only thing that is stopping me from going is my husband because he is 100% positive that we’ll end up getting stationed there. Maybe but it’s not like it’ll be anytime soon. I want to go soon not wait another 10/20 years. And it’s not like we can’t afford it. But off of that, Sarah just doesn’t realize if you really want something, you have to work for it and you have to WANT it, not pine after it. I did that for so many years and it got me nowhere. I’m glad I took the risk that I did because I don’t know where I would be now if I hadn’t. Honestly, people make fun of her for being mentally retarded or having Autism or something. I’m not sure but I think she has something….the way she acts then if anybody tries talking to her normally she flips the fuck out. And apparently, she’s been cutting herself…and by cutting, she’s using her fingernails to scratch her arms *rolls eyes* She cries about she’s stuck at home and she doesn’t want to be living with her parents for the rest of her life. Well, GET OUT AND DO SOMETHING. All her Twitter posts talk about buying hundreds of dollars’ worth of this stupid Japanese fashion that just looks like something you should be wearing at a convention and not public yet she doesn’t have enough money to pay bills, save up to move out of her “miserable” parent’s house or save to go to Japan. You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. Guess I’ll just continue to sit back and watch this train wreck. It’s sad but at the same time watching her timeline makes me feel better about myself and my accomplishments. Peace.
