October already!
Oct. 1st, 2012 02:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
graffiti_marinaThis year is getting to the point where it slowly starts to wrap up. Before you know it, it’ll be Christmas time and I’ll be in San Antonio looking at all the pretty lights at the riverwalk and Six Flags 😮
But instead of getting ahead of myself….ugghhhh I had my little toenails (on both feet mind you) removed last Wednesday. I had to do it finally. It got to the point where it just hurt to run, if I stubbled either toe it hurt like hell, and everytime I would cut the nail I’d end up pinching my skin because it was like everytime it grew back it would fuse to my skin. Well, now it’s gone never to return and the healing process is balls because my toes hurt like a thousand needles are pinching my little toes. It’s a mixture between that and numbness that won’t go away. it’s awful. Now, it’s a challenge to keep the damn dog and my son from climbing all over me. It sucks and I wish the re-growing process was over already. I’m ready to start exercising again.
Me and my husband started the Herbal Life shakes and nonsense. Admittedly, I’ve lost some weight but not without consequence. I’m only doing it for a little while to see if I can shed some of this stomach weight, especially once I get back to exercising., then sticking to healthy food and maybe just one shake for breakfast. I’ve notice my stomach has shrank just a little. But the vitamins that come with it have been making me throw up, not to mention the nasty ass tea that comes with it leaves me with an unsettled stomach. I keep forgetting to take the tea before dinner but hopefully that won’t mean much. I threw up yesterday, then again this morning. Yuck. All this stuff makes me feel disgusting and makes me leave some not so pleasant gasses afterwards. It could also be because of the lack of water I was in-taking the last few days as well, so I need to become better at that.
I really don’t want to go to work on Thursday since my post surgery leave is up that day but then right after is a 3 day weekend I had no idea about. I don’t know if we’ll be doing anything either since we JUST came back from out of town this past weekend. At the last minute, my husband figured he would talk to me about not moving to the other tiny crappy little apartment we put money down on. I mean, since he’s staying in the military it wouldn’t make sense to move there anyway because the only reason we sought out the other apartment in the first place was so we could eventually get on the housing list and move on base. We ended up losing the deposit, but it took so much stress off of me once we did so. To top it off, the last 4 days it was raining to include the day we were supposed to be out of this apartment. Thank God we didn’t do it. But now we’re stuck here once again in a place I believe we have outgrown. With no PCS to look forward to and because my husband can’t gain anymore than a 2 year retainability, we are still stuck in this God-forsaken town. I really think I should just give up and just accept that I’m not going to be going anywhere anymore. It was cool to think at one point that I was going to be getting out of here, but not anymore. I guess if we eventually buy a house it would make me feel better knowing that we’ll have a backyard and a place to call our own to do whatever we want to rather than playing by the rules (and wasting too much money) of an apartment complex. At least I can think that once my year volunteer is up, I’ll PCA to another squadron. I may start looking to do some 365 volunteer deployments as well since I can’t get a regular one waiting around for my bucket. I need a new experience and I know I won’t be getting anything useful living in Abilene.
But instead of getting ahead of myself….ugghhhh I had my little toenails (on both feet mind you) removed last Wednesday. I had to do it finally. It got to the point where it just hurt to run, if I stubbled either toe it hurt like hell, and everytime I would cut the nail I’d end up pinching my skin because it was like everytime it grew back it would fuse to my skin. Well, now it’s gone never to return and the healing process is balls because my toes hurt like a thousand needles are pinching my little toes. It’s a mixture between that and numbness that won’t go away. it’s awful. Now, it’s a challenge to keep the damn dog and my son from climbing all over me. It sucks and I wish the re-growing process was over already. I’m ready to start exercising again.
Me and my husband started the Herbal Life shakes and nonsense. Admittedly, I’ve lost some weight but not without consequence. I’m only doing it for a little while to see if I can shed some of this stomach weight, especially once I get back to exercising., then sticking to healthy food and maybe just one shake for breakfast. I’ve notice my stomach has shrank just a little. But the vitamins that come with it have been making me throw up, not to mention the nasty ass tea that comes with it leaves me with an unsettled stomach. I keep forgetting to take the tea before dinner but hopefully that won’t mean much. I threw up yesterday, then again this morning. Yuck. All this stuff makes me feel disgusting and makes me leave some not so pleasant gasses afterwards. It could also be because of the lack of water I was in-taking the last few days as well, so I need to become better at that.
I really don’t want to go to work on Thursday since my post surgery leave is up that day but then right after is a 3 day weekend I had no idea about. I don’t know if we’ll be doing anything either since we JUST came back from out of town this past weekend. At the last minute, my husband figured he would talk to me about not moving to the other tiny crappy little apartment we put money down on. I mean, since he’s staying in the military it wouldn’t make sense to move there anyway because the only reason we sought out the other apartment in the first place was so we could eventually get on the housing list and move on base. We ended up losing the deposit, but it took so much stress off of me once we did so. To top it off, the last 4 days it was raining to include the day we were supposed to be out of this apartment. Thank God we didn’t do it. But now we’re stuck here once again in a place I believe we have outgrown. With no PCS to look forward to and because my husband can’t gain anymore than a 2 year retainability, we are still stuck in this God-forsaken town. I really think I should just give up and just accept that I’m not going to be going anywhere anymore. It was cool to think at one point that I was going to be getting out of here, but not anymore. I guess if we eventually buy a house it would make me feel better knowing that we’ll have a backyard and a place to call our own to do whatever we want to rather than playing by the rules (and wasting too much money) of an apartment complex. At least I can think that once my year volunteer is up, I’ll PCA to another squadron. I may start looking to do some 365 volunteer deployments as well since I can’t get a regular one waiting around for my bucket. I need a new experience and I know I won’t be getting anything useful living in Abilene.
